I don’t write anymore. And to me, that is a truly scary thing.
We met at the wrong time. That’s what I keep telling myself anyway. Maybe one day years from now, we’ll meet in a coffee shop in a far away city somewhere and we could give it another shot."
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Everything you love is here
It’s where everything happens. In addition to any various amounts of other unknown happenings one would never know…unless told.
You go in. You pee. You go out.
You go in with another person. Do what you gotta do. And step through that paint splattered door.
You go in with two other people, and the three of you emerge back out into the dim hallway leading to the bathroom.
However, by that time, it’s hard to conceal the true actions of what’s really going on in there. But you don’t seem to care.
One by one, at some point, all six of you (the apparent unspoken knowledge of the capacity) file out of the fluorescent colored room.
The ones that were banging on the door just moments before watch you as you exit in single file out the bathroom door, holding in their pee with semi-angry smiles. They know what’s going on. And yet, it’s an unspoken silence as you whisk right past them.
They know what’s going down. And you know what’s going through their minds.
Yet, it is a family in there. You become close to those you share the bathroom with. Protective, even. Downright happy “moments” occur above that sink as you stare at yourself in the mirror breathing in the unmentionable powder of happiness as you converse with your toiletry friends.
These are the moments you will remember. These are the moments you will hesitate on telling your children about. But why?
You have lived. You have truly known the secrets of a room and the opportunities it may entail. The people you could meet. The way certain things can make you feel. The endless possibilities beyond that whirling toilet bowl of water.
There is no shame in using the bathroom. They are all just joyful discoveries.
Right now, as it is close to being 5am, I don’t know where my mind is at.